the end of november.

This pretty much captures how I feel this morning. B left yesterday. He’s headed home to begin his dissertation research, and he’ll be away indefinitely. Yesterday marked the end of a wonderful eight months together. I’ve never done this before — the bracing for the end you know is coming — and it is really hard. We had a sad, sweet, weepy week, filled with reflection on what this has meant for us.

I took B to the bus station early in the morning, and when I got home, I busied myself with a deep cleaning of the apartment. Time to marvel at the neatness of my knitting corner:

All (okay, most) of my WIPs are in that bag, and I intend to spend some quality time on that part of the couch today. My friends have been pretty wonderful about filling my date-book with hang-out time, and I’ve got a whole list of things to keep me busy in the short term. Topping that list? Being good to myself, knitting on Terra, cuddling Boh. (Well, and making progress on that pile of grading I’ve neglected…)

Welcome to December.


15 thoughts on “the end of november.

  1. Oh, Rooster, I send you lots of hugs. I hope December is good to you and keeps on bringing all kinds of wonderful, warm things your way.

  2. **Hugs**

    For a while a couple of years ago, my husband was working out of town during the week. I remember how awful Sunday nights felt when he left. At least you have Boh to snuggle when you’re feeling extra lonely!

  3. a big pile (bag?) of hugs from me, too! Wishing you a wonderful December filled with lots of good times with your friends, Boh and your knitting! xoxo

  4. Ohhh I’m sorry – that’s always so hard :( Sam and I send good wishes your way, and I hope December and 2011 bring happiness and joy (and knitting magic).

  5. Ugh. I’m so sorry. I hope you find comfort in Boh snuggles, lovely friends, and lots of fiber.

  6. Goodbyes of that variety are so incredibly hard. Sending you warm, happy thoughts from California!! You never know what the future will bring.

  7. I experienced the exact thing in my early 20’s in your town and same college town area. He left for another state, returned the following year only to leave again permanently a few months later. So hard. Hugs to you.

  8. I am really sorry love, I recently went through that and this is my first Christmas solo. Sending your strength and love. I am glad that topping your list is being good to yourself, that is the best way to heal. Take care of yourself and keep on knitting!

  9. I have the same Marimekko sheets, they make me feel peaceful and happy. I hope that you’ll find some of that snuggled up with Boh.

  10. Oh, how CRAP. I’m so sorry. You guys obviously shared something special and exciting and fun, even just by reading what you’ve written here I knew that. Hope Boh and other warm, cosy things are keeping you from being too blue. Life sounds hard right now though, sending hugs and good thoughts.

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